Ugh fucking depressing

Seriously, I don't even know why I'm in this position. I thank God in whatever condition he puts me through, but I regret making certain decisions. I feel like I've left the half of me somewhere else. I miss days with Angelica where we goof off and tell each other that we're like best friends that are meant to be. I miss talking to people at church like they're the only friends that I have treasured. I do have a best friend now, and I don't regret taking her in. She's the best I've ever had. But I miss Angelica, and so many other people out there that I've just trashed. Ugh... It's never going to be the same anymore :/