Well

I've been avoiding using the computers this week, because I had so many things to get done. Thanksgiving was fun, not too fun, but content-ing. Black Friday was exciting. At 2AM my mom came home so I got ready because I did not sleep at all and I was texting Gabby all night, then we all met up at Old Navy. Johnny, Gabby, her Mom, my Mom, and I went to Old Navy in Birch. Exciting! Then we got out at like 4:30 ish, and the thing is, I was suposed to go to Irvine at 5:30 with Gabby! But I overslept and then ended going to Brea Mall and splurging haha. I met Yeon, Sung, Lauren&JamesByunteh, Jinny & Stella, and my favorite, Ellen (: And Justing Chang claimed that he saw me in Hollister while I was buying my clothes haha. Well, yeah. I miss Sunny kids! :( I imagine my care-free life I can have if I went to SunnyHills, especially because of my high possibilities in getting a scholarship for dance. Well yeah, then yesterday, on Saturday, I went to Gabby's and we went to ToysRUs, Pandaexpress, BCF, Marshalls, and got clothes, then we went to Albertsons, then watched horror stuff then went bowling. Hahaha, then I went home around 12 and then yeah. Here are some pictures.

Motivation

I am currently reading Romans in the Holy Book, because I was inspired to live a healthier life by applying the gospel into my daily life. Although I was broken because of the difficulties I've been facing for awhile now at church and other places, I was able to rethink and realize that this is the signal God's giving me to try harder and not let materialistic things get in my way. He's been wanting me to be able to find him instead of running to other people and forgetting about how important He was. Even if I lose all my friends, God's all I've got. I know it's so hard to believe that I was convinced by the community group's lessons, but I know I haven't been putting enough effort. I've honestly thought that looking better than "that girl" was putting me forward, now that I've looked at it, I've made myself lower than I already was by trying hard to impress people I don't really even care about. I know I can't immediately fix my problems, but I'm starting to try more. I want to move churches. I'm so sick and tired of GFC. I don't know :/ Well, yeah. Idols are the main distraction to my life, but I'm going to remind myself from this day forward that materialistic things aren't the main points in life. I'm the worst person ever -.- Well, I'm freakishly tired, and I don't even know why I'm like not even sleeping.

Today

Is so depressing. I have no idea why. I'm so exhausted. I miss you. I miss everything, but it's hard for me to continue wanting it. I freaking failed the french crap today, and Timmmmy pulled a bad joke on me today in art. Well, I don't feel good. Someone help me.

Texting Donna and Gabby

And telling Gabby how inspirational GLEE is. I love that show! I first thought it was lame, but trust, this is a goooooooood show. My head hurts and I feel like throwing up :/ Ugh. Well, yeah, I am currently in my room on my computer and I'm really tired but I need to finish my English hw on TKAM and study for my final third day of french2 exam. I don't even get French. I need a tutor or something. I give up on you! Donna is making me satisfied with this horrendous day. Today was excruciating. I hated today. I just had the worst day today, and the fact I had three exams -.- And I have exams this whole week! Darn it. I'm actually trying to make a difference (: Don't you seeee it?! Well yeah. I need to kick it with meeeeee faaavoriteee Donnnna <3 Hhahaha, well yeah. I'm done wasting my time to entertain you readers hahahaha. Current obsession: freaking Wooyoung from 2PM. Just stating that makes me ten times lame-er than usual but ever since they even came out, I've laid my eyes on that boy! hahaha, besides the secret one I like ;) Well, I am like, totally tired haha, and my fingers keep typing but I'm truly done now. hahaha, je fini. ... hahhaha i'm pretty sure that's wrong. man, efff francais! hahhaa, jplayyy. J'adore.

Do you get that feeling

Of letting things go, but you truly want it back? Well, I do. But nothing's going to change. No one's really trying. Haha, well. I am currently using Lauren's laptop ;) Dance is truly boring, well it makes up my life. And then I have to study study study. I honestly liked my old life better, with my long hair -.- Ever since the hair's been cut, my life has turned 180 degrees. I've lost everything, but I've lost the guts to bring it back like before. I want you, and I want it back, but idk if I'm able to. Well, bye <3 update laaaterrrr! hahaha, Tim and I put matching heart rhinestone stickers on our phones LOL haha. He looks gay with his phone, but I know deep inside he adores it. Talk to me through my phone babbbyss. Bye.

I don't

Want you anymore. Today was so boring! It was incredibly impossible to say you had a more dull day than me. I need someone to rely on! Jeez, and I need to study and yeah. haha, dance is hurting me more than ever and yeah. I am feeling like I need to throw up. I feel so sick all of the sudden. Gut feeling tells me to get him back, but my mind is set to letting it go. Well! I'm going to choreograph rest of the song and yeah (: Feeeel free to text/call/aim. Bye!

what the hell?!

So someone went on my blog and typed some random crap lol. Well, currently doing hw, talking to Michael Choe, hm, yeah. I'm done with crying over him, I'm done missing all the things that I shouldn't have been missing. I'm done with everything ;) Well, I'm planning on what to do tomorrow because Gabby's obviously stupid, haha, jkays, I love you bfffff! Anyways, I am feeling lurked. Like someone I dont' know is reading my blog entries haha. Weeeeelll, I am done! Time for my painkillers. My leg sucks -.- Well byeee <3


" I'm the broken-hearted girl that wants everything out of him " apparently, He says he didn't want me, he said he wanted someone else, the girl of his dreams. She didn't want him. What will he do now? He said she said blah. Even if I wanted you back, you're done. That leaves me with.. uh, a new choice. You choose (:

I

Secretly like you. But you just don't know. We're long forgotten.
I'm tired of waiting. So maybe I'll just let it go.

Homecoming!

Okay, I guess it was alright. Just a few stressful moments, and it was fine. So, I met up with Lawrence and his two friends... Uhh.. I already forgot their names. David and Harrison! Or something haha. And then, we ate at Guppy's then went to Troy. I saw Jenny Yun! She's like, the same haha. Well, yeah. Then Lawrence decides to disappear with a chick with my shit -.- Ugh, whatever. Anyways, piiiictuuures!

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!

I'm really trying now. I've never felt more motivated in my life than this. Tomorrow's homecoming, and apparently, I'm not ready. My arm really aches. I don't know what's going on with my body. I'm always injuring myself and the simplicity of healing early is like zero percent. I tore my muscle/ligament. I can't bend my leg. Tragic. Well, come back to meeee ;) Haha! Anyways, I am determined for a new start (: My hair's growing! Yay! Well, yeah. Even though I'm one of the most negative person, I'm trying to renew myself into a more positive attitude. I'm becoming more satisfied, but I'm not there yet. Yeah (: Byeeeee

It's November

Autumn. I'm pressured to keep being "innocent" for the rest of my life, but recently, I've wanted to just get out of the box and do whatever I want. I'm trying my hardest to keep up my grades and keep my social activities. Ugh, and I think I did something really bad to my knee. I have to wear knee braces and I got crutches, sadly. But I don't have to be on crutches at all times unless I need my support. Haha, I look crippled. Well, yeah. It's really late. I usually sleep at nine thirty. Surprisingly, I had makeup hw and I needed to study so yeah. I'm just sitting on my desk. Studying and typing this. Was at Gabby's until like, eleven. Man -.- Well, going to go (:


byeee <3


I wonder if I'll ever see him again.